Well, it didn't work

Last post I was talking about having a suprapubic catheter put in....well they couldn't do it. Why? My bladder is too small. We know it was shot but I didn't realize the radiation damage had shrunk my bladder. A normal bladder can hold 300ML...think about the volume of a can of soda. My bladder can't even hold a half cup of coffee...small cup. Which is why I have to go so often. Now we just wait until they can schedule me for the big surgery. Yesterday was a setback I wasn't ready for so I was pretty bummed out. Just need to bounce back