Friday, July 28, 2017

Managing the waves

Wow, just got hit with a big wave of emotion, boom! The thought arrives, then the tears flow. Really miss mom, my brother and my aunt.

Sunday, July 9, 2017

Cancer sucks

I went to visit my dad last week to help him adjust life without mom. While in Wisconsin I visited my brother who is battling aggressive melanoma. He's struggling with a lot of pain, he walks with a cane, can't work and the doctors are trying to find the right combination of drugs. I also learned that my dad's sister is battling breast cancer and I just received a call from my cousin, Aunt Gerry passed away either last night or early this morning. Cancer sucks, enough already

Thursday, June 29, 2017

Clean bill of health

Two great appointments over the past week. Last week - met with my oncologist, PSA is 0.28, cancer is still in remission! Next appointment in 3 months 😀 This week, met with my surgeon for an annual checkup Blood counts are great, kidneys and pouch look great, two thumbs up! Woo Hoo!

Thursday, June 22, 2017

A chronicle of events

1/9/14 - surgery, upper right colon pouch, urinary diversion - 9 days in the hospital at Duke, wife was apathetic 11/14 - caught my wife at the time, cheating on me 12/27/14 - I moved out 1/07 - present Ex continues to throw me under the bus, dad gets blamed for everything. 11/15 - surgery, twisted bowel, 17 days in the hospital. Ex-wife goes to my apartment to help me with getting some clean clothes. Ex-wife steals. $250 gift card and steals a ring that was mine 5/26/16 - separation agreement signed 6/16/16 - Father's Day- ex-wife hangs me up in jail, stranded after an aggressive pissed off junior cop (Long story) 8/5/16 - divorce is final 5/1/17 - I make the 12th mortgage payment, last of my obligation 6/21/17 - house has been listed since 3/15/17, priced $20k+ too high, after 3+ months no offers. Over priced The saga continues

Wednesday, June 21, 2017

PSA is rising, but not enough

I had my labs done monday, results today showed my PSA went up from 0.08 to 0.28. Still not enough to go back on meds...yippie!!! cancer is still in remission.

was that my mom speaking to me?

so my mom passed on 5/13, 5/14 was Mother's day. I talked to my mom every day, probably only missed 7 days over the last year. My mom's name was Dorothy. last week, on 6/14, one month after Mother's Day, I called American Express. when the customer service agent came on the phone, she said... "hello Mr. Evans, this is Dorothy" The immediate thought that came to my mind was "mom? is that you?" then I lost it, cried like a baby I believe in some way, it was mom talking to me

Mom passed on 5/13

sorry it's been a while since my last post....my mom passed late on 5/13 in Carlsbad, CA while on vacation. It's been a very tough time since, but I have peace in that mom didn't suffer and went on her own terms. My grieving comes in waves and my guess is it will last the rest of my life. Mom was the best.