Wednesday, December 31, 2014

My Dr has confidence

That my PSA will remain fact, he won't worry until it gets to 5 or so. One less thing to worry about, I needed that. Happy New Year

Thursday, December 25, 2014

Feeling nervous about my upcoming PSA

Mainly because I've had right hip pain and lower back pain. Both are potential signs the cancer is moving. Maybe I'm being paranoid, don't know but it causes more stress. Appointment is 12/31 and I'll have an update shortly afterwards. In the meantime, I get to move and settle into my new place.

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

New beginning, need strength

Boy, I could use a good long sunny day. Too much gloom and rain lately is making it tough on my mood. Moving day is 12/27 and while I won't get it all moved, it's most likely my first full night in my apt. Life, it is a changing. Need to stay positive, focus on being successful in the new job and treat every day as a blessing. I go see My Oncologist on 12/31....have to admit I'm a little nervous this time. Hopefully it's all for naught. I'll take all the positive vibes I can get. Until next time.

Monday, December 15, 2014

Holidays, tough time

Especially when you're going to be alone. It's one thing to be alone, it's another to be lonely. I need to find something to keep me busy in the absence of family. After 28 years, I have to admit it's going to be tough mentally. Need to avoid letting my mind go into dark places. I'll take all the prayers I can get...thank you.

Saturday, December 13, 2014

Move postponed 1 wk

Need to get a legal document signed so that it doesn't appear that I'm 'abandoning' the family. Not looking forward to living alone and starting over at 53 yrs old. I'm going to need some support and friends to lean on.

Saturday, December 6, 2014

Moving day next week

It's time to make the move, apt is rented and my wife can't wait to get me out the door. Tough emotionally but I need to suck it up and get as ice cold as my wife. It's heart breaking bc I personally don't want our relationship to end. Who knows what the future will bring... Ugh

Wednesday, December 3, 2014

A new beginning

Friday starts a new beginning, starting over after 27+ years. Mixed emotions Neat new place but I dread moving, always a pain. Oh well, I'll grab some buddies and we'll make it fun. Next chapter begins very soon. Until next time.

Monday, December 1, 2014

In & out of the hospital

Too bad nothing's changed at home to help me This one I have to do on my own, alone. Wish me luck, I need some to come my way.