Wednesday, December 31, 2014
Thursday, December 25, 2014
Mainly because I've had right hip pain and lower back pain. Both are potential signs the cancer is moving. Maybe I'm being paranoid, don't know but it causes more stress. Appointment is 12/31 and I'll have an update shortly afterwards. In the meantime, I get to move and settle into my new place.
Tuesday, December 23, 2014
Boy, I could use a good long sunny day. Too much gloom and rain lately is making it tough on my mood. Moving day is 12/27 and while I won't get it all moved, it's most likely my first full night in my apt. Life, it is a changing. Need to stay positive, focus on being successful in the new job and treat every day as a blessing. I go see My Oncologist on 12/31....have to admit I'm a little nervous this time. Hopefully it's all for naught. I'll take all the positive vibes I can get. Until next time.
Monday, December 15, 2014
Especially when you're going to be alone. It's one thing to be alone, it's another to be lonely. I need to find something to keep me busy in the absence of family. After 28 years, I have to admit it's going to be tough mentally. Need to avoid letting my mind go into dark places. I'll take all the prayers I can get...thank you.
Saturday, December 13, 2014
Saturday, December 6, 2014
It's time to make the move, apt is rented and my wife can't wait to get me out the door. Tough emotionally but I need to suck it up and get as ice cold as my wife. It's heart breaking bc I personally don't want our relationship to end. Who knows what the future will bring... Ugh
Wednesday, December 3, 2014
Monday, December 1, 2014
Sunday, November 2, 2014
Friday, October 31, 2014
Tonight was Senior Night at our FB game and it was so awesome walking with my very mature daughter, WOW does fly! I'm so proud of my girl, she has had such an awesome high school career, I can't say enough positive things about her accomplishments. So far she's been accepted to Eastern Carolina and Applacian State. Awesome. We're waiting on word back from UNCC and UNC Chapel Hill Wishing my girl good luck
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Sunday, October 19, 2014
Week, after over 5 years of conflict,(some aspects over 10 yrs) it's time to start anew. Life is about to change....like I need additional stress while battling cancer and trying to make a living in a new job. Looks like I'm going to need a little luck coming my way soon. On another note, Movember is coming and I'm excited for my 6th year!
Thursday, October 2, 2014
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
For my PSA check up. There probably isn't anything to be worried about but it's my nature to think. I can't say that I feel differently so one could assume everything will be 'normal'. Then again, when I was first diagnosed, I didn't have any symptoms. December was my last shot of Lupron so the meds should be all cleared out of my system. Monday, Sept 29 is the blood test. I'll be sure to keep you posted.
Saturday, August 30, 2014
We all have those special friends who hold a nice place in our hearts. My friend Dick Ziaya passed away Tuesday August 19th and my heart has been heavy ever since. I met Dick 31 yrs ago when I was a wet behind the ears kid and he took me into his world. We spent time away from work together, hunting and spending quality time. I watched his kids grow up and Dick never invited coworkers into his personal life, he always kept them separate. So to have him invite me into his world was an honor. I'll miss my friend but I know now he's out of pain and in a special seat in the world after life on earth. RIP
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Thursday, July 31, 2014
Hey friends, I applied for a trademark of a logo I plan on using and we're one step closer. If there are no objections after the trademark office posts soon, I will get my trademark in about 11 weeks. Stay tuned, you'll be glad you did. Until next time, Make every day great!
Friday, July 11, 2014
And in my visit with my surgeon this week he gave. E a clean bill of health! Next appointment, 1 yr from now, cool. Last week I met with my Oncologist, Dr. Reza and the PSA came back at 0.1 and now remember, I've been off hormone meds for 6.5 months. The damn cancer is in remission and I feel great. The only bad news to report lately is that I lost my Splunk FitBit last Sunday. Not sure how it happened but oh well, I had a backup. My youngest child turns 16 on Saturday, 7/12. My oldest turns 18 on 9/12. Yeah, full on teenagers. Glad I was never like that for my parents...ha!!
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
I had a visit with my oncologist this week and the PSA results came back....drum roll please.... <0.1 Woo Hoo! Nice results given that I have been off Androgen Deprivation Therapy (ADT) for 6 months. Cancer is still in remission, great news. Dr. Reza also checked my testosterone and found it at 80ng which is unusually low but most likely it's lagging due to residual ADT lingering in my system. Check up in 3 months will give a clearer picture. Until then, it's off dreaming and fulfilling my bucket list items! Oh wait, I have this darn job thing that keeps getting in the way. Happy 4th!
Monday, June 9, 2014
Feeling good, physically pretty darn good. I attribute my good health to my attitude and exercise. Since surgery I've been pushing myself to walk at a very brisk pace and lately have tried to mix in some Jogging in my walking workouts. I usually do 4.5-5 miles and push to do it in one hour. Most times successful :) I'm still down 10lbs since surgery which is good, I needed to lose the weight. Could stand to lose a few but that will come with the exercise. More coming soon but I'm very thankful for my Surgeon, Dr. Peterson, he's an amazing man and does amazing work.
Friday, June 6, 2014
What a great organization, Movember...helping raise awareness and research $ around Prostate Cancer and men's health. I had the chance to meet Adam Garone the co-founder back in 2011, awesome mate, very driven. Fast forward to last month and all of the Prostate cancer BS I've been through including the radiation Cycstitis and subsequent surgery I had in January and it makes me appreciate Movember's efforts even more. Then, my surgeon asked me if I would like to participate in an effort to help design and build a patient portal/website designed to give cancer patients, Dr's, care givers and family members a place to go for information to help them in their efforts around PCa. I of course said yes....and he said I would be one of two patient advocates. Also contributing would be Dr's from Duke, Harvard, Moffitt Cancer center, Univ of Michigan, Johns Hopkins and you get the picture, all the top cancer institutions and the brightest Dr's. WAAAY COOOL! Stay tuned, more details to follow as we progress and formulate a new tool that will be based/hosted on the Movember website. What is awesome about this is...Movember is bringing together cancer orgs so they don't do work in silos, they collaborate. They do the same with their research dollars so that things are collaborated on and we find a cure faster. Cheers to Movember!
Wednesday, June 4, 2014
Ha, far from Superman but I feel very good. Last weekend I played back2back days of golf in our neighborhood outing called the Hack & Whack (for good reason). We had a record 44 guys play and my team finished 3rd and our team had a blast, lots of fun. I was worried about my stamina but on Monday I felt great. Maybe this was the medicine I needed from a physical challenge standpoint and a mental standpoint. I might be over the hump. On another note, a bunch of supermen are about to take the ice for the Stanley Cup Playoffs. I can't wait, this is the best hockey you'll watch (outside the Kings-Blackhawks series which went to overtime in game 7). Have fun, be great!
Saturday, May 31, 2014
I've had a few good days and certainly don't want to jinx anything. Played golf today and will again tomorrow and I seem to be holding up well. Stamina or bouncing back after physical activity has been a challenge, we'll see how tomorrow goes. Watched any of the hockey playoffs lately? Great time of year to watch, this is the best hockey right now, especially the Blackhawks - Kings series. Welcome to summer!
Friday, May 23, 2014
Lately my body has been all out of whack and I don't know why. Lots of pain in my back (might be kidney related, don't know) and migraines. Keeping my body temperature has been a challenge too...pulling out a towel to wipe sweat away is not that classy during a Clint meeting. Memorial Day weekend, time to Honor. Make it a great weekend, grill out, find a pool, relax. Later
Friday, May 16, 2014
What an unbelievable time we had in Nevis, a small island off St. Kitts. We stayed at the Four Seasons and what an amazing place with awesome service. Monkey Xing...yup, we saw some island monkeys up close and personal...pretty cool. Sunshine, a catamaran ride, snorkeling, a few cold beverages, sweet! The batteries are recharged, need to qualify for next trip, to Sorrento Italy.
Thursday, April 24, 2014
What a game last night....what a series so far. This team is legit and fun to watch. Why the Blue Jackets? We lived in Columbus back in 2000 when they were awarded the franchise so I've been a fan ever since. Go CBJ! Health update...I had my PSA checked this week...results: PSA = 0 Woo Hoo! Feeling great, getting plenty of exercise but need to eat a little better. Too much ice cream :) Until next time
Thursday, April 17, 2014
I want to come back on this earth as a dog....no, specifically, I want to come back as a dog owned by my wife. Then I would be guaranteed to be spoiled. sitting here in my office I can hear my dog Mocha snoring clear across in the other room.....25 feet away from me. He's got it made...and sleeping in the next chair over is our spoiled cat. Life is good
Sunday, April 13, 2014
I walked over 5 miles,Saturday and today and afterwards did a ton of yard work. Tons of yard work and at the end of each day, I still had the energy to pull off 10 push ups, ha! Seriously, physically I feel like I'm about 90% and still need to work on rebuilding muscle mass. Surgery was just 120 days ago (January 9th) and it's been a long road back. Masters Golf tourney just finished and I have to say, I'm a fan of when winners show their emotions, adds a human touch. Jordan Speith....what a performance for a 20 yr old kid, wow. Until next time
Sunday, April 6, 2014
For the Wisconsin Badgers basketball team....it was fun to be along for the ride. So close to getting into the title game but they went farther than any other Big Ten team and beyond my expectations. Glad to see coach Bo Ryan get to the final four in what has been a great coaching career. Next post....my health and then some!
Saturday, March 29, 2014
Thursday, March 20, 2014
These first 4 days of the tourney are AWESOME! Incredible energy, elation and also disappointment and heartache. 99.9% of these kids won't make it to the NBA so they're playing for the love of the game. Warren Buffett won't be sending me the $1B for a perfect bracket, I'm not off to a good start. Looking forward to the next 3 days! My health is good, work is keeping me busy.... As Jake would say, 'Life is Good' I hope things are awesome in your world
Saturday, March 15, 2014
What a beautiful day, so I took advantage of it. Walking with Mocha this morning for almost 5 miles, then after lunch with Bradley, he and I walked for just under 2 miles. Plain and simple,it was an awesome day. So awesome, it included some Graeter's Ice Cream. If you've never had Graeter's, you've never had the world's best ice cream. None othe comes close. I'm so full I could bust...too many scoops :)
Tuesday, March 11, 2014
Well, work again. You know, travel, flights, hotels, rental cars, thunderstorms, etc. I've been back to work for 7 business days and it's been great diving in with both feet. Coming back after two months isn't the easiest but I have a great inside sales teammate who is helping me get up to speed. Health-wise, I'm still about 80% physically and working on my stamina via walking. I need to work more on my strength training and get ripped...hah! A little tone would be great. The plumbing is still working good and I'm getting more used to the 'new normal' outside the house so to speak. Short post today, splitting headache that I'm sure will subside. Be healthy, be happy
Saturday, March 1, 2014
My 10yr old lab puppy, Mocha and I took a very brisk walk today. I have to share it was at a pace that I was used to walking and it felt awesome! I'm going to run a half marathon next week...feeling grea. Well, just kidding about the half marathon but I will definitely pick up the walk schedule in frequency and length because I need to continue to build stamina. Ready to dive in with both feet at work on Monday but not before I try to put in 10 miles tomorrow. I did over 5 today and the weather is supposed to be awesome. On another note....are you getting ready for March Madness yet?
Tuesday, February 25, 2014
Well, my surgeon gave me the green light to "resume normal activities" so I'll be back to work on Monday. I'll take the rest of this week to get an update from my inside rep to find out where I need to be plugged in to accounts. They did an ultrasound of my kidneys and new pouch and just a mild concern with the left kidney but nothing to lose sleep over. Follow up next month for another Renal Ultrasound... April 1st, no foolin. While I feel better every day, my stamina is still lacking so I'll have to pace myself and not overdue it out of the gate. My personality is geared to dive in and go all out without a governor....so we'll see. On a very fun note, my mom is a HUGE Duke basketball fan so we picked up some cool souvenirs to send her...she's going to love the Coach K bobble head doll :)
Tuesday, February 18, 2014
Okay so Mother Nature is finally cooperating so I've been able to get out and walk. Monday - 4.2 miles Tuesday - 10 miles Oh yeah baby, working my way back into shape. The next 3 days are supposed to be in the low 70's so expect me to get in some good milage totals. So with walking 10 miles today you might think I burned some calories..well I did, BUT, I still gained 1 pound. Woo Hoo, I'm up to 168lbs. (Last time I weighed this much, I can't remember) Getting back to work is just around the corner, I'm hoping for a full release as of Feb. 28th. Until next time, keep those sneakers rolling ;)
Saturday, February 15, 2014
Boy yet his has been a longer recovery than I ever expected and by far the longest one of my life. BUT, I'm starting to gradually start to get my energy back although quite a way to go yet but I'll take progress nonetheless. Next Dr. appointment is on February 25th and depending oh what my wound looks like, if it's completely healed or still has to close yet. (Right now it still has about 2" to go yet) Getting my muscles back in shape will take a few months, especially the stomach muscles which they cut through at about 7-8 inches long. My goal to return to work is 2017....just kidding. I hope to get the "all clear" for either March 3rd or 10th. On a side note, the massive snowstorm we got was a pretty god one. But it's pretty much melted now and we're supposed to be in the 70's next week. Go figure. Until next time.
Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Complain? Not sure but here goes...even though my appetite is growing and I'm eating what seems like all day long, I can't gain a pound! I know I've lost a bunch of muscle mass so it's going to take time. But geez, I've lost 2 lbs in the last week. One day I'll look back on this and laugh and regret complaining. Here's to more ice cream and cookies! Woo Hoo!
Monday, February 10, 2014
As most of you know I've been tethered to a Wound Vacuum to help my large incision close quicker. It's about the size of a loaf of bread...the kind from Macaroni Grill lets say. So since surgery, I've been doing the sponge bath routine and just dying to take a real shower. Well, the nurse taught me how to detach from Hoover (I had to name my vacuum) and cover up my wound using tape and Saran Wrap. Right now as I type this I can tell you, my body is saying "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh". What a feeling! I bet the rest of the family will be glad to know I've cleaned up in the shower :) Boy, the regular things we take for granted, huh? That's my highlight for the day....how will you create your own highlight? Enjoy
Thursday, February 6, 2014
Had to go to the emergency room last night after freezing around 4pm (then covering up w/ blankets) and then pulling a 102 temperature around 8pm. Turns out I have a urinary trac infection. So they gave me an antibiotic and scripts for two more antibiotics to start today. Well this morning around 3am, I was freezing again and woke up at 5:30 with a temperature of 103. More Tylenol and Motrin and it broke the fever which is down to 100.5. Just waiting on feedback from my Surgeon on what my next steps should be. Hope this isn't a setback. Another update soon.
Saturday, February 1, 2014
Ah yes, I lost 19 pounds in 18 days due to the surgery going from 185 down to 166. Guess what, I've found 3 of those lbs already. The appetite is coming back, it's not 100% yet but I'm working on it. In fact, for the Super Bowl, I plan on having as much food as my stomach will hold. Chicken wings, chili, queso and chips....can't wait. Maybe I'll start early and practice up today during some key college BB match ups. Wisconsin vs Ohio State and Duke vs Syracuse. Make it a great Saturday peeps!
Friday, January 31, 2014
Is cramping my style here.... How am I supposed to walk 1-2 miles every day when it's this cold, crazy weather. After a low of 16 degrees last night, it's hopefully going to get up to the low 50's today. If so, I'll be walking and trying to build up the strength. I know I'm like most of the country...ready for spring :)
Thursday, January 30, 2014
Great two visits on Tuesday and Wednesday with my surgeon and his team. The staples came out of the incision yet I'm still wearing the wound vacuum to help heal the open portion of my surgery incision. The surgeon says that until the wound closes completely, I run the risk of a hernia or causing damage bc the stomach muscles are very weak right now. Big message is to still take it easy, no break dancing yet :) The catheter came out and I'm now cathing my new pouch. Officially, I've entered my new 'new normal' phase of my life. After a few weeks, I'll have a much better quality of life compared with prior to surgery. It's amazing what our modern medicine can accomplish. Appetite continues to improve each day and once the weather warms up (fingers crossed) I'll be putting on my walking shoes on and getting in at least 1.5 miles every day. Let the sun shine baby!
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Heading up to Duke for a follow up appointment with my surgeon. 2 appointments actually, the first is for X-rays and blood work. Not sure if the staples and catheter are coming out but I'll find out soon enough. They'll also look at the wound and determine if I should continue with the wound vacuum. More later Btw, it was 62 degrees yesterday....expecting 1-4 inches of snow today
Saturday, January 25, 2014
Man I hope so....my would today was driving me nuts, a constant itch that I hope is my body telling me it's the wound is healing. You are what you eat so I'm going to turn into a protein shake. Trying to build back up my weight and muscle strength. Losing 15 lbs in 2 weeks takes a toll on the body. Like I've said before, I don't know where I would be without my bride. She's been a godsend and a ton of help in every way possible. I owe her big time. Thank goodness there has been a bunch of great collegE basketball games on the past couple of weeks. It sure has helped pass the time. Until next time
Wednesday, January 22, 2014
For the past year I have been on Hormone medication to put my cancer into remission. Good news: the cancer is in fact in remission! Bad news: the medication allows for muscle atrophy Add in my surgery and it's obvious to the eye I'm dropping muscle mass that I'll need to rebuild. Weight when I entered the hospital 2 weeks ago = 185lbs Weight today = 171lbs I need to get this wound to heal and walk now and then build once I'm given the green light. Restrictions today are no lifting more than 10lbs, no standing for >10 minutes. Patience is key as I want to get after it now but I can't. Until next time
Sunday, January 19, 2014
Happy Sunday everyone. Here the sun is shining but still a little cool. I'm going to try and out for a walk today just to taste the fresh air. Kathy has been amazing in he relentless help, waking up at midnight and other scheduled time to help me take my meds. I can't thank her enough. I owe a BIG thx to Lisa Nash, her family and Daniella Meyers and her family for bringing over a couple of meals each while Kathy was with me at Duke. Helped us out in a great way. Making recovery on the pain front, seems a fair amount less so I'm trying to stay away from the pain med Dilaudin. Dilaudin, WOW! Tiny pill can get you very loopy very fast! Hope the kids help out Kathy today and through Wednesday (no school M-W).
Friday, January 17, 2014
Man it's good to be home. After eight days in the hospital and a tough recovery so far (pain-wise), they let me go home to recover here. Given as many times during the day and night that you are poked prodded, vitals taken, all of the interruptions cause for a long week. It looks like the infection is going to be the only setback so far, but it's still early in the process. The infection is causing me to wear a 24/7 wound vacuum pump that is supposed to accelerate healing. I love the progress when we go back in less than two weeks to meet with the surgeon. Thanks for all of the hugs and prayers and thoughts and support from everybody, I can't tell you how much it means to me. BTW, when I got home tonight I was starving and for the past week I've had no ability to eat much of any food. No appetite and I could hardly fit anything in given the gas I had. Tonight I actually ate this scrumptious cheese crêpe thingy that was the size of 2/3rds the size of my iPhone and it was awesome! I was stuffed....so that should give you an idea for the capacity of what I can eat. More this weekend.
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Progress is going week, need to keep doing what I'm doing. The main incision has some redness around it so they removed 4 staples and packed it with gauze. They will be taking out the epidural and then giving me oral antibiotics for the would infection. On Wednesday they will remove one of my JP drains. Looks like I'll be 'unhooked' from any tubes (remember the Nicholson scene from the movie Bucket List) My surgeon and said we'll likely get you going home on Thursday, which would be 6 days in the hospital after surgery last week Thursday afternoon. Amazing, about 2-3 days shorter than I anticipated. I'll have another update mid-day tomorrow after the morning action. Later
Sunday, January 12, 2014
Saw my surgeon, Dr.Peterson at 7am, he checked out my incision says everything looks fine and that I'm doing everything I need to and sometimes this ILeus lasts up to 10 days. Everyone including me thinks I'll be breaking wind sometime today. He listen to my stomach and said it was a little quiet in there, but I told him that there was some gurgling earlier today so there is some action. He reinforced that I'm doing everything I'm supposed be doing, "you'll fart soon". Maybe some pictures next time? Later
So after a major surgery like I had, your bowers go to sleep and. Need to be 'woken up'. Well, I've walked 3.5 miles and my 'Ileus' is the last section that is being pretty stubborn. My stomach is distended or swollen full of gas so it looks like I'm pregnant. Seriously, my gut is huge. I had X-rays to confirm....dr on call said your best friend is Mr. Walk. So I did 9 laps or a half mile and thought would rest and see how this works. Never thought I would wish to fart so bad!
Friday, January 10, 2014
Day one was kind of tough, because I didn't sleep at all last night. So I'm running on fumes and trying to get through the day that started with quite a bit of pain. We got the pain under control, no big deal and as you would expect in a hospital, every 2 hours someone is walking in, taking vitals, etc. Ugh. I was super glad my bride was with me today, she helped me get through the day :) So I sat in a chair for starters then took a walk with Kathy. After Kathy left to go back to Charlotte, I got up and finished the walk. I walked 1 mile today, less than 23 hrs after surgery! Tired and expect to sleep hopefully most of the night. 2 miles is the goal tomorrow! Until next time BE
Wednesday, January 8, 2014
Sunday, January 5, 2014
Yes, I'm getting nervous. It's a big surgery and a long recovery time. I've never been through something of this magnitude as far as my health is concerned. Major surgery on Thursday, no solid for starting on Tuesday. That's probably going to be the biggest challenge, no solid food for two days....I'll be going nuts. I can't thank you all enough for the messages and positive thoughts and prayers, I'll take all I can get :) Until next time...
Saturday, January 4, 2014
The Pre-op appointment went smooth as I expected, now comes the choice. Which type of urinary diversion surgery do I have? Continent Catheterizable Urinary diversion (internal pouch) or Urosotmy (external pouch) Honestly, it doesn't matter to me. Either way it will be 100% improvement from what I live with today. I had a chance to have lunch with a good friend, Jaime Zabala and what a great time. Jaime is awesome and it was super or catch up and see how his new job is going and it's great to hear he's very happy and enjoying his new role. That's awesome. The prep starts on Tuesday, no solid food Tuesday or Wednesday and a 'GoLyghtly' clean out on Wednesday afternoon, fun. I'll be working up until COB on Wednesday then it's under the knife very early on Thursday. A little nervous. Until next time